WORDS, WORDS

All I could think of,
All I could ever say,
All I could have done,
All I could have wanted,
All I could have wished for,

In one second,
One word I uttered,
In anger and frustration
Altered the course,

I couldn't plead temporary insanity,
To take back the words I had spoken,
The written to erase,
The sting in their meaning,
To rub and soothe,

With words I had dreamt up paradise
And in one second,
I brought it all tumbling down,
With one I uttered.

K8's O

Fading rainbow

It took a while,
Longer than the summer sun,
To look at the horizon,
The rainbow has faded,
In its place a gray dark mass,

The sun has come up,
Scorching the once beautiful dappled horizon,
It's gone, it has slowly faded,
That I have to deal with,

My tears I should wipe,
My exploding heart I must cool,
From the seething and scorching sun,
But my eyes I must keep open,
To look out for the spring sun,
That with it brings flowers' bloom,
Which sparks the heart again,
And brings another rainbow.

K8's O

I am drowning

On the thin straws I clutch,
With faith I hope to wade through the wave,
I had seen the signs, to keep off the banks,
I ignored the warning,
I had crossed that river before,
But this time, it was different,

The waves come on strong,
The harder they beat me, the stronger I clutch,
Now, I am beginning to drown,
The straw am clutching on,
Too weak to withstand the gushing wave,

Help, help, help, I yell,
My voice to shaky and my body trembling,
No a soul however, to hear my distress call,
On the banks, they stand,
Cheering as the waves grow wild,

Their cheers grow louder, am now drowning,
They who we laughed together,
Long to hear my last gasp for breath,
Now, I can’t breath, my hands too weak
Weary of clutching at the straw,
That I hoped would keep me above the water,

It’s long gone and lost in the raging waters,
A silent four word prayer I whisper,
God please help me,
Save me from drowning,
I am drowning, I am drowning.

K8's O

Point of no return

Like a seesaw, our love moves,
Balance difficult to keep,
Like a pendulum,
Our emotions swing,
Sadness, happiness all at once,

There is no telling,
What the silence holds,
Or what the words mean,
Either what the actions portend,
Time it seems, has run out,

To look back at what we had,
Hard to keep the good memories,
Of a love swing that was once certain.

At every door knob turn,
My eyes light with expectations,
To see you once again,
But it's not you at the door,
I jump excitedly at every phone ring,
But it's not you at the end of the line,
I glow at every click on my mail in box,
But it's not your message,

Everyday, I long to hear your voice,
But you won't talk to me.
Night falls and darkness comes,
To announce, we have come,
to the point of no return.

K8's O

It’s been a while

Weeks have passed,
Since my last genuine smile or laughter,
The afflictions of a broken heart,
Whose pleas of forgiveness,
Went unheeded,
Whose tears nobody could wipe,

The loud cries no one heard,
A repentant heart,
Rubbed with more pain,

It's been a while,
Since I could remember,
How it is to be loved,
To be cared for,
to have a relaxing sleep.

Pills, cigarettes the only true friend I have,
It's been a while,
I have regretted my mistake,
I wished I could rip my heart off,
To wear off the hurt.

K8's O

FLORIDA 2000

FLORIDA 2000

With every step, my heart pounded faster,
A week had gone by, since we met on line,
As I stepped floor, light with neon lights,
I took a deep breath.

There you were, your face
Glittering under the disco lights,
We shook hands, and our hearts leaped with joy,
Time seemed to stand still.

As we excitedly talked about ourselves,
Our dreams and ambitions,
We connected, we understood,
From then on, though not spoken,
Our paths had crossed,
And I knew then on,
I would want to walk with you,
I didn't know what tomorrow would bring,
But I chose to take the walk anyway.

Walk in the sun
My world feels empty without your laughter,
It feels treacherous and cold
Without your tender caressing hands,
Feels like a bad dream,
Without your encouraging words,
Seems like one dark cloud,
Since you walked out.

It is a brunt I have to bear,
The prospects of a ghostly quiet house,
Haunting memories of our love.

K8's O

THIS GIRL’S HERE…FOR YOU!

Look here, young woman
Life is short, to spend groaning over milk that doesn't get to the boil
Complaining about your failures
Sleepless nights imported by your destructive thoughts
Keep positive, as much as you can
Give yourself one reason to smile…none? You're alive!
A girl's gotta do what a girl's got to do
Don't just sit there and whine
While the rest are dining using your wine glass honey
Wake up, smell the coffee!

You are special
The world's greatest!
One in a million
Wonderful
You deserve all the happiness
You've got no replica of you in this world
You are capable of great accomplishments
You are YOU!

Enjoy yours while it lasts
Never hold regrets close to your chin
Feel good about yourself…anytime, all the time!
Spoil yourself, encourage yourself, and revitalize your mind
With good thoughts, healthy food, sufficient exercise
Surround your life with loved ones
Life is short…say your “I love you’s” well in advance but:
Only if you mean it!
Smile…be glad as many times as possible
Even when tears of blue come…
I'm letting you know that
You are not alone.

You may need a friend
A confidant…a shoulder…a hand
You may need a voice, an opinion, a smile
I stand strong
I give you strength
I assure you
That I'll always be here
For your needs so near
So to just be clear
We need each other dear!

K8’s